Work Life Balance

huh? What's that? if i am ever graded on that, i will fail terribly.....

just missed my wedding anniversary a few days back. I was so caught up with work that i had slept on the sofa for two nights straight. Once i'm tired working, I'll just set my alarm for the next hour and then take a quick nap on the bed. On friday, I could really feel like someone was squeezing my heart. I think I am simply just too exhausted.

I just can't seem to find a balance. Actually, sometimes I feel that I am just spread too thin. I am not working at my optimal level. I am not doing well both at home or at work. I was so guilty the other day when I saw my hubby washing the dishes that I have used and left in the basin for a few days. It got me really thinking how i have contributed to this household. He washes the clothes and dishes, manages the finance, pays the bills, maintains the car etc etc ... it seems like i had blended into the walls, and that it doesn't really matter whether i am around or not. Is this the life that I want? Can i really continue living like this? I feel that my heart is pumping very fast every day, and that it's going to stop anytime.... at work, i am making too many mistakes and it really does further demoralise me...

i think it is just these two weeks. perhaps it's PMS (post menstrual stress & pre menstrual stress). I hope I snap out of it fast, and quickly find a balance. If not, I feel that my heart may stop soon. =(